
Ben at six days old in the hospital in Texas
Ben yesterday, just one day shy of five months old
Benicio,
My sweet, amazing son, I can hardly believe that you are five months old today. It seems like yesterday that I was staring down at you in your hospital isolette, in awe that your first mom had given us such an amazing gift. I remember my joy and tears the first time someone called you my son. I remember my sadness and heartbreak for the woman who gave you life but wasn't able to care for you. I remember feeling God's presence everywhere around us. I remember knowing, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that this was His plan for our family. It does seem like it all happened just yesterday, and yet it also seems like you have always been a part of me and our family. You are such a beautiful blessing for me, and for your entire family. I cannot imagine our lives without you. Every time I look into your big brown eyes, I fall just a bit more in love with you. Thank you, precious son, just for being you, for your beautiful spirit, so full of smiles and giggles, for your unconditional love and adoration of me, and for bringing happiness back to our home. To quote one of your favorite books, "I love you through and through-yesterday, today, and tomorrow too!"
All my love always,
Mommy